OK, I think we all know that Norman Reedus has my heart, BUT, I have a new hero. She doesn’t use a crossbow, she doesn’t kill zombies (that I know of lol) but the only weapon she needs is the truth! Check out her blog!
I will be in an aritcle in MORE magazine (comes out tomorrow) obviously it won’t be under my pen name :O so you can see how boring my REAL name is 😦
The article is about asexuality, so is slightly adult in nature. I haven’t told anyone other than my parents and you guys so I will probably be getting some scared emails from people I know! For those who haven’t heard the term, Asexuality is a lack of desire or want of sexual relations. Essentially I want every other part of the relationship (kissing, cuddling etc) just not the sex part. I’ve been asked why I’m doing an article when I haven’t even told friends, but I want people to realise what it is. I live in a world where sex is forced down my throat from every direction, and it’s not particularly pleasant. Most people have never even heard of it, so I’m hoping to raise awareness.
Last Tue I went to London to do a photoshoot and interview in a Hotel in the psher area of London. I rocked up in a pair of jeans, getting appalled looks from the staff that worked there! Ooops! They spent over two hours doing makeup and hair, which was new for me as I’ve never had anything like that done before. I’m pretty rubbish at being a girl if I’m honest! The stylist put curls in my hair which I was waaaaaaaay too excited about! Once that was all done, the photos were taken. I’m not going to lie, I used to think models had an easy life, but I’ve learned it’s not much fun being contorted and twisted and being made to sit in painful positions for hours. I won’t be persuing a career in this field that’s for sure! The positions that looked ‘natural’ were ways I would never sit or lie as they were bent all over the place! Between shots, my hair would be fussed over, my clothes etc. Whilst it was a lot of fun for a one off, I couldn’t do it daily. I’d probably go crazy!
The hotel room had a gorgeous four poster bed and was ridiculously posh. I felt out of place just being there! All the staff were amasingly reassuring and sweet and they couldn’t have been more welcoming and friendly. Once the photos were done, and I managed to FINALLY get the skinniest skinny jeans in the world off, everyone left and it was time for the interview. That was surprisingly easy too as it was just like chatting to a friend. Everyone was wonderful as I’d been utterly terrfied! I wish I’d taken some photos of the room as there’s no way I’ll ever be in anywhere that posh again lol!
Crazy! Utterly unimaginable previously, but I’m very excited! I will be doing more giveaways when I hit the big 1000, only about 20 more people to go, yay!
What have I been up to recently? Not much if I’m honest. I’ve been signed off work for a few weeks and have just been trying to get my head together, which isn’t going so well. Turning 29 makes you wonder what it is you’ve done with your life so far and I just don’t have a whole lot to show for it. I’ve started two new books in two days as my thoughts are so scattered! I’ve also been watching a lot of movies to try to not ‘think’ so I have been drowning in Norman Reedus, which is pretty much every girl’s dream right? What do you mean you’ve never heard of him!?!
Anyhoo, the newest book is with the Beta readers, so hopefully once they’re done with it, I can get to work on it again and make changes and get it out to agents etc. Urgh, such a long, drawn out process. There are still queries out from my last set I sent out over six months ago! There’ll be another ice age before they’re all back no doubt.
I’m going though a popcorn and ramen noodles phase at the moment, I can’t get enough of either! Not good as neither are particularly nutritious, but there we go. I’ve been binging on cherries as they seem to be in season right now and have overkilled slightly lol.
Sorry about the random post, but my head’s all over the place at the moment.
Love and hugs
Season Two of The Walking Dead is out on DVD soon! SO EXCITED! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! lol
I was having a conversation with a friend (painter) about what inspires her art. I was curious as to whether joy or sorrow gave her more inspiration to paint or more ideas. She said that both did, but in different ways. Sorrow tended to be inspiring, but only after the event. I.e sometimes the emotions were so overwhelming that she would have to wait until that subsided before she could access that emotion to paint with. She said joy was equally evasive in the sense that if she’s happy, she wants be enjoying it, rather than trying to get it down on canvas.
Personally, I find sorrow and pain to be more inspiring for poetry. When I am down I can churn out Haiku by the hundred (not that they’re much good lol) and I find I can write sad scenes a lot more realistically than happy ones. I suppose it may be because happiness tends to be more fleeting. Sorrow and pain tend to linger longer so we become better aquainted with them. Having depression doesn’t help either.
Joy I find difficult to access when I’m down, bu the opposite isn’t true. If I’m happy, I can write sad things eaily (though it does tend to end my happy mood!)
So what inspires you? What mood gives you the most inspiration?
Love and Hugs
P.S My newest book is with the Betas, so hopefully I’ll be able to get to work on fixing it as soon as they’re done. Then it’s out to the agents and publishers again! Oh the horror! Oh the cost of stamps lol x
Here is a gif of Norman Reedus and Sean Patrick Flannery to make you smile as it always makes me grin!
I’m still editing my newest work. It has no ending as I hated the old one so much I scrapped it lol.
If you would be willing to be a Beta reader, please contact me as I want to get a lot of different perspectives, but please be aware that if you offer to do it you can’t share the work with ANYONE, it can’t be forwarded, passed around or copied. I need honest feedback about pacing, storyline, characters and themes. I will also need constructive criticism (I have feelings too)
I’m having giveaways on my fanpage on facebook, so go check those out.
On a completely different subject, my new medication is making me feel rubbish. I’m panicky, getting awful palpitations and have been off work for two weeks as I feel so awful. I can’t sleep properly and everything is freaking me out, leaving the house is becoming an issue again and I’m really not feeling remotely ‘well’ so apologies if I’m ‘off’ in any way. I’m trying to distract myself, but it’s really difficult. Sertraline is a pain in the behind. Apparently 1 in 3 people will have an episode of mental illness at some point in their life, and I suppose I don’t understand the stigma attached, hence talking about it quite openly. I know a lot of people out there are going through the same things, and I just want people to realise it’s ok. We’ve got nothing to be ashamed of. We can help it as much as people who have cancer can help being ill, the difference is people are scared of people with mental illness thinking we’re going to flip and murder someone or something equally awful. I have never killed anyone. I don’t have violent episodes apart from ones directed at myself and I don’t scream abuse at people or ‘flip out’ in any way other than panicking and feeling awful. So if you’ve never been mentally ill, just be aware that we’re not psychotic killers, we’re just like you, we just struggle to cope with things that you find easy. Our lives are dictated by ridiculous things that we have no control over and it is in no way fun or enjoyable (After returning to work after having a break down, (which everyone knew about) I was asked if I’d ‘had a nice holiday’ I personally think I should be allowed to take a swing at people like that, but there we are) I would love to be a fully functional ‘normal’ person, but beating myself up about it just makes me feel worse. So there we are, a little too much TMI, but I get tired of people treating the subject like it’s taboo. It’s not. It’s an illness like any other and we should be ok talking about it!
Urgh! Just recently I can’t stop drinking tea! I’m thinking part of it is due to the weather being so like winter, that my body has shifted into ‘give up on cold drinks, ice, strappy tops and shorts’ mode. The heating has been switched on for goodness sake! Every day the weather is rubbish and grey and it’s either raining or looking like it’s about to. The only way us Brits make it through the winter is by thinking about Summer, and now that we’ve been cheated out of it, I think people are going to start hibernating!
I did something to my shoulder at pole last night, so struggled to sleep and am depending on tea to get me through the day! I’m working on edits for a NEW novel which I’m desperately trying to get finished so I can send it out to my Beta readers, but it’s a real struggle. I’m not feeling remotely inspired by it at the moment and I’ve hit a dead end…again. The ending sucked so needs rewriting and there are threads that don’t work out properly. Grrrr! I was hoping to get this one out to agents and publishers asap as I haven’t had anything new to send out for ages! ‘Of Darkness and Light’ is making the rounds….AGAIN with the info of how many downloads I’ve had etc, but some of those I sent out at the beginning of the year and I’ve not even had half of them back yet!
Please could you go Like my fanpage if you haven’t already! I’d love to get up to 900 by my Birthday (Next Wednesday)
Somewhere in the madness of giveaways, competitions and making swag, I actually almost forgot the reason for it. I want to be a published author. I want people to read my work. Duh.
I had a very good writing day on Wednesday and wrote about 10 thousand words, which isn’t bad. The problem is, it wasn’t on a book that’s anywhere near finished. I am driving myself a little crazy because I can’t focus on one thing for more than five minutes. I know this is a symptom of depression, and due to the fact that they’re messing with my meds again (You don’t have to be crazy to be here, but it helps) I can’t sit still.
So to all those I have waiting to be Beta readers, it might be a little while longer than I anticipated. Grrrr!
BUT, check out my awesome tees I made yesterday! I’m wearing one now!
unfortunately the quality of the transfers wasn’t perfect as I burned them in a couple of places, but it’s all good and not that noticeable. I also broke the iron, so will be going out to buy my parents a new one. That’ll be a blow to the wallet I don’t need, but c’est la vie.
ALSO! I have joined squidoo. I don’t quite get it yet, but I have put a lens (page) up about my charm bracelets and will be adding more once I get used to it. It seems like a fun premise and kept me out of trouble for half an hour so it’s all good!
Love and hugs
P.S Had to give up on FAQ Friday due to a lack of questions. If you have any, message me or leave them in the comments and I’ll answer them on here as and when!
PPS; I had 460 downloads on Sunday alone last week when the book was free, so I’m thrilled about that. I’ve had 6 people borrow it, and 11 downloads between monday-today. The book is only 99p/$1.50 so take a chance on an indie author who has NO support from an agent or publishing house. I’m having to do all this from scratch having had no idea what I’m doing. It’s a steep learning curve, and along with having to hold down a full time job I loathe, it’s difficult to know where to start sometimes. In total, I’ve made about £40 from over 3600 downloads. That’s nothing. I’ve spent about £1500 on promotion, editing etc. This is what I want more than anything, but us indie’s need your help!