Crazy! Utterly unimaginable previously, but I’m very excited! I will be doing more giveaways when I hit the big 1000, only about 20 more people to go, yay!
What have I been up to recently? Not much if I’m honest. I’ve been signed off work for a few weeks and have just been trying to get my head together, which isn’t going so well. Turning 29 makes you wonder what it is you’ve done with your life so far and I just don’t have a whole lot to show for it. I’ve started two new books in two days as my thoughts are so scattered! I’ve also been watching a lot of movies to try to not ‘think’ so I have been drowning in Norman Reedus, which is pretty much every girl’s dream right? What do you mean you’ve never heard of him!?!
Anyhoo, the newest book is with the Beta readers, so hopefully once they’re done with it, I can get to work on it again and make changes and get it out to agents etc. Urgh, such a long, drawn out process. There are still queries out from my last set I sent out over six months ago! There’ll be another ice age before they’re all back no doubt.
I’m going though a popcorn and ramen noodles phase at the moment, I can’t get enough of either! Not good as neither are particularly nutritious, but there we go. I’ve been binging on cherries as they seem to be in season right now and have overkilled slightly lol.
Sorry about the random post, but my head’s all over the place at the moment.
Love and hugs
Season Two of The Walking Dead is out on DVD soon! SO EXCITED! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! lol
I was having a conversation with a friend (painter) about what inspires her art. I was curious as to whether joy or sorrow gave her more inspiration to paint or more ideas. She said that both did, but in different ways. Sorrow tended to be inspiring, but only after the event. I.e sometimes the emotions were so overwhelming that she would have to wait until that subsided before she could access that emotion to paint with. She said joy was equally evasive in the sense that if she’s happy, she wants be enjoying it, rather than trying to get it down on canvas.
Personally, I find sorrow and pain to be more inspiring for poetry. When I am down I can churn out Haiku by the hundred (not that they’re much good lol) and I find I can write sad scenes a lot more realistically than happy ones. I suppose it may be because happiness tends to be more fleeting. Sorrow and pain tend to linger longer so we become better aquainted with them. Having depression doesn’t help either.
Joy I find difficult to access when I’m down, bu the opposite isn’t true. If I’m happy, I can write sad things eaily (though it does tend to end my happy mood!)
So what inspires you? What mood gives you the most inspiration?
Love and Hugs
P.S My newest book is with the Betas, so hopefully I’ll be able to get to work on fixing it as soon as they’re done. Then it’s out to the agents and publishers again! Oh the horror! Oh the cost of stamps lol x
Here is a gif of Norman Reedus and Sean Patrick Flannery to make you smile as it always makes me grin!
The ‘new’ first draft is out with the betas, so we shall see what they think. The biggest problem I found for this one was how much I struggled to end it. I also hate how confined the genre is with word count. No publishers want a YA novel that is over 80,000 words. Of Darkness and light is 99,000 and I had to cut a tonne out of that! The one I’ve just sent out is 78,000 but that is because I cut a lot. More will probably be added after this draft. I understand that bigger books cost more to produce, but go pick up a book from any other genre, and they’re often twice the size or more. The ‘A Song of Ice and Fire’ series for example (which I am currently reading) are HUGE. Each book is MASSIVE! I struggle to ‘kill my darlings’ when editing as if I put it in in the first place, I think there’s a reason for it. Some scenes don’t add to the story, but they show more about the character. Editing is my own personal hell, not only because I’m hacking out things that I like, but also because it’s impossible to see the book as a reader would. I know the background of my chars, so it’s impossible to notice gaps as my mind will instantly fill them in!
Any wannabe authors out there, find yourself a good critique partner as soon as possible! It’s not something I’ve been able to get for myself and I think it would be helpful, especially if that person is already published! That kind of advice is invaluable!
Thank you all again for the all the Birthday Wishes! They were much appreciated!
I used this for a caption comp recently, but had to share it again. If you haven’t seen the Boondock Saints 1 and 2, go find them now! There will be a third, and the brothers quite clearly object to sparkly vampires! Bearing in mind my ex looks a lot like Robert Pattinson, I especially love this picture lol x
Awesomeness! I’ve nearly finished the first draft of my new book, so I will be able to get it out to you Betas before too long! This one has been painful as each successive ending seemed to get worse and worse! Hopefully this one will work better. If you’re still interested in being a Beta, let me know, but please bear in mind that this is a 1ST DRAFT and is nowhere near done. I just need to know opinions on characters, story, pacing etc.
I’m still editing my newest work. It has no ending as I hated the old one so much I scrapped it lol.
If you would be willing to be a Beta reader, please contact me as I want to get a lot of different perspectives, but please be aware that if you offer to do it you can’t share the work with ANYONE, it can’t be forwarded, passed around or copied. I need honest feedback about pacing, storyline, characters and themes. I will also need constructive criticism (I have feelings too)
I’m having giveaways on my fanpage on facebook, so go check those out.
On a completely different subject, my new medication is making me feel rubbish. I’m panicky, getting awful palpitations and have been off work for two weeks as I feel so awful. I can’t sleep properly and everything is freaking me out, leaving the house is becoming an issue again and I’m really not feeling remotely ‘well’ so apologies if I’m ‘off’ in any way. I’m trying to distract myself, but it’s really difficult. Sertraline is a pain in the behind. Apparently 1 in 3 people will have an episode of mental illness at some point in their life, and I suppose I don’t understand the stigma attached, hence talking about it quite openly. I know a lot of people out there are going through the same things, and I just want people to realise it’s ok. We’ve got nothing to be ashamed of. We can help it as much as people who have cancer can help being ill, the difference is people are scared of people with mental illness thinking we’re going to flip and murder someone or something equally awful. I have never killed anyone. I don’t have violent episodes apart from ones directed at myself and I don’t scream abuse at people or ‘flip out’ in any way other than panicking and feeling awful. So if you’ve never been mentally ill, just be aware that we’re not psychotic killers, we’re just like you, we just struggle to cope with things that you find easy. Our lives are dictated by ridiculous things that we have no control over and it is in no way fun or enjoyable (After returning to work after having a break down, (which everyone knew about) I was asked if I’d ‘had a nice holiday’ I personally think I should be allowed to take a swing at people like that, but there we are) I would love to be a fully functional ‘normal’ person, but beating myself up about it just makes me feel worse. So there we are, a little too much TMI, but I get tired of people treating the subject like it’s taboo. It’s not. It’s an illness like any other and we should be ok talking about it!